𝗟𝗶𝗳𝗲 𝗨𝗽𝗱𝗮𝘁𝗲 - 𝗠𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗮𝗹 𝗛𝗲𝗮𝗹𝘁𝗵 𝗠𝗮𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗿𝘀
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🕑 Added 2022-11-16 04:32:11 +0000 UTC
𝗟𝗶𝗳𝗲 𝗨𝗽𝗱𝗮𝘁𝗲 - 𝗠𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗮𝗹 𝗛𝗲𝗮𝗹𝘁𝗵 𝗠𝗮𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗿𝘀
I feel overwhelmed with gratitude for the kindness I've received from fans since I started, especially over the past few days.
I created this page to promote a sex-positive culture in hopes that I could influence even a small number of people to explore and express their sexuality. I genuinely believe that being vulnerable with each other is at the root of normalizing our discussions around sex and decreasing the rxpe culture that exists today.
I've shared many personal stories since starting, which you can listen to under the "My Story" tab above, but I haven't felt ready to talk about my most recent challenge until now. While I plan to give a more detailed account eventually, I think it's essential to continue the precedent I've set here of being transparent and talking about my trauma as it occurs. If we can't share what's happened to us without fear of being stigmatized, we'll never achieve a more normalized, sex-positive culture.
In February, a person I was dating recorded me during sex without my knowledge or consent. Not only did it violate my trust and boundaries, but it also triggered my PTSD. When it rains, it pours, and I found myself in a state of hopelessness, reliving the experiences I'd had in the past and wondering if anything would ever be better. These thoughts continued to spiral until I began to consider whether life itself was simply too painful.
I was fortunate to not only immediately recognize the severity of these thoughts but also to have friends who were understanding, had experienced those same feelings, and were active in my recovery. When I felt pxralyzed with grief and depression, they supported me in getting the help I desperately needed.
It was so difficult to step away from my page, but I knew it was essential for my safety. So I admitted myself to an outpatient group therapy program which met 5 days a week, 5.5-6 hours a day, and began working towards healing.
Since coming back full-time, I've faced the challenges of getting my page's momentum going again. It hasn't been easy, but the support I've received from creators and fans has been incredible. As my birthday is just a couple of weeks away, I can't help but reflect on how much this community has embraced me and my mission. Every kind word and dollar tipped has enabled me to remain strong and push through so I can welcome my 34th year of life. Thank you for supporting me on this journey.
