Well surprisingly I had the car dropped off to me this morni..
🕑 Added 2020-08-13 21:31:05 +0000 UTC
Well surprisingly I had the car dropped off to me this morning but then a lot of things are said to me that I literally just literally don't believe is already been lied to so I literally don't believe anything anymore what's so ever anyways. But point aside I have the car at least so I think I'm just going to get out of the house and go pick up some groceries for myself since I haven't literally bought any food since I've been back from Jamie's. I have no idea when I'm going to have the car again and I have full expectations of him being gone all weekend and taking the car and I need to accept that I believe that is what's going to happen cuz it probably is man I sound fucking crazy I don't know I'm just going through a lot of shit right now I just need my life to sort out. I really need to start just working on myself too but it's so hard when you're so damaged inside and it's hard to focus on your cell phone literally your brain is scattered. but I'm also going to go pick up some notepads or notebooks whatever you want to call them so I can start like actually getting shut down this weekend for my content ideas written dkwn and computerget on my passwords and emails and whatnot all written down and then write new ones down and get that all done and I think on top of that I'm going to get another notebook just for like me. not have a journal but like I don't know maybe write some things down to have some many goals, like like I said I want to try and get a car by the end of the month then little things like maybe write down get married so I can clean instead of being a depressed mess and not getting anything done. Maybe try and go up whole day without crying I don't know like you know try and have little mini goals and once I accomplish them I can feel actually feel a small sence of happiness if that makes sense?
