Was feeling frisky yesterday. My partner left me in the morn..
🕑 Added 2024-04-22 20:25:08 +0000 UTC
Was feeling frisky yesterday. My partner left me in the morning and I have late onset arousal.. so I had to finish the job myself lol. I noticed something very particular about this whole moment. The colors, the clothes, the innocence. My partner is a man that’s older than me. & no, I’m not attracted to him because he reminds me of my father or anything.. however what I did notice is that he provides me with emotional intimacy, something I didn’t get much of from my father because he was mostly at work or decompressing from it. This causes me to regress a bit into my past, into the me I was when me and the only man in my life were the closest, into what it feels like to be cared for, to be nurtured by someone with the capacity to do so. I also make sure not to conflate the two and give myself space to process and release these feelings before seeing him again. I haven’t told him and I don’t know if I will because I don’t want this to offend him but I’m really happy and proud of myself for coming to this realization. We all have mommy and daddy issues because no one’s parents were perfect. Heck, my parents were great parents they just couldn’t do it all with the little information they had but they tried and that’s all that matters.
